Saturday, January 31, 2009


Last night, my BFF and I were having supper with a friend which just came back from Bintulu with his boss. And we hang out till 2 am something and chit chat about everything. At the beginning, his group of friends (2 couples included his boss) joined us for the supper. There are 7 of us and my BFF and I not really know his friends.. Feeling so awkward! But somethings that really caught our attention which create up our own topic...

His boss and his friend (business partner) both came with a lovely lady. Wow! This caused many question marks pop up in my friend eyes... *Bling Bling* Haha! But I already knew the story about his boss.. *winks* For the other couple, I think they looked like a normal couple. So, I never bothered! As they busy talking about business stuffs, my BFF and I also busy gossiping about the boss... We are open what? Talk in front of them somemore! LOL~ Actually, not really open as we sat close to each other then we just whispered. My BFF very eager to dig out about the scandalous! Well, in the end I found out my story version not totally 100% correct! -.-" Cant blame us as we really cant join in their complicated business topic! Grrrr..

Around 11pm, both of the couples leaving to their 'heaven'... Privacy! 1st question pop up by my BFF, "The girl is your boss wife ar?" My friend just smile and answered, "His girlfriend!" Then I asked, "Not his 'small' wife?" As before this I ever met up with the boss & the girl with a baby boy! He answered, "NO! How can marry 2nd one if the 1st one still." I just -.-" then asked," How about another couple? Normal couple or it's another..." The topic became hotter and hotter after that..

Ok! Let me conclude everything to make it clear here. The boss and the business partner both having affair outside! So good become boss huh? At the aged 40++ still can have girlfriend that same aged as me, 26! Darn living in heaven! The boss even have 1 baby boy with the girlfriend and they yet not MARRIED... See! What happen in this world nowadays? The lady is young and she's beautiful but why she want to ruin her life to have affair with people husband which only can spend a little time with her. Is it money can satisfy everything? -.-" My friend told me that the girl always called him up just to check where's her 'boyfriend' when they go for traveling. I can feel she's also living in unhappy situation.. everyday worried there will be 3rd person appeared.. But we never can predict what happen in future! But she still lucky that the 'boyfriend' bought her double storey semi-D, car and give her monthly allowance... and she no need to work at all! Whether their relationship secure or not, that will be another episode is her life...

As for the boss, my friend did told us that the boss sometimes also stress to face both of his "loved one" and always spend time with my friend to share his problem. (The problem that he created his own! -.-") And I feel sad for his wife as she doesn't know the husband have young 'girlfriend' and baby boy at other place. Maybe she's the type not to care much about what his husband doing when go for traveling. So the morale of the story, stick whenever your husband go! LOL~ Do not too obvious, maybe sometimes you should go together with your husband for his business trip. So called 'honeymoon' after marriage? :)

All I can say is this kind of relationship really tiring all parties; the husband, the wife and the 'girlfriend'. Maybe for my friend's boss case, the wife not really suffering so much as she doesn't know the husband affair. Honestly, I felt pity for her! And the boss himself feel the stress to fulfilled both his 'loved one' and even have to arrange his time travel far away to meet his 'girlfriend' once a week or once in two weeks? In the same time, he have to hide this secret with him...bear the feelings of missing his 'girlfriend' and his son. Well, this is the risk/consequences to having affair! For the 'girlfriend', she is the most suffering i guess. (If only she truly loved his 'boyfriend'.) She can't own him completely, worried to be found out by his wife, worried the appear of 3rd person (another new 'girlfriend'), no status in her relationship, no status for her son.... And does the relationship lasts forever?

What do you guys think after reading this?

Some readings for you all,
Check it out "15 Steps to Surviving an Affair!"

Friday, January 30, 2009


I got this posted in my FS Bulletin Board.
I just do my part and post it here! :)
Anyway, nice facts to share with...

>>>Msg: NO! Don’t close it. Read till the end!<<<

When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When she stares at your lips - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hits you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she starts cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignores you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When she's scared - [Protect her]
When she lays her head on your shoulder -[Tilt her head up & kiss her]
When she steals your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she likes you - [she really does more than you could understand]
When she grabs at your hands - [Hold her and play with her fingers]
When she bumps into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]
When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]
When she re-post this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is so much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her
- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie/show with her even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

* If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will:
> Call you, Kiss you, Love you, Text you...
(I wish this's real..)

Guys post as: " I'd do this for my girl "
Girls post as: "A REAL BOYFRIEND"
--- ILY@IMY J... I wish u do this for me! ---
This is really irresistible! I bet some of you might...
Check it out "You shouldn't eat this!"

Thursday, January 29, 2009

It's just another day...

"2009 Lunar New Year"

Nothing much to say. It's just another day... Life is like a book, each page represents each day in our life. What am I saying? Alright... I'm not emo, just feeling numb at the moment. Why? Something's on my mind? That's right! The things that I don't wish to happen... Kind of upset to know that but this is life! Not every moment that we gone through will be sweet and beautiful. It's not always happy ending in the end of every chapter... Life must go on!

Believe it or not today is my 1st day stepped out from my house since the day I back from work on the new year eve. And I got my very 1st angpow(red packet) today at my BFF house! Now I realized that I'm getting old already! (Every year repeating the same phrase!) LOL~ Actually at my aged, when go for visiting, they usually won't give any angpow because we're no longer little kids or teenagers. This is a hardest truth to be heard! Objection!!!! Haha! But when think about it, it's true also as we already have our own career and got our salary/bonus as "angpow"! But this year, I dint get any "angpow" from my boss instead a big stack of paperwork to be completed before end of this month. Thank you boss!

Here are some photos to share with you...

Have you ever eaten Natural Vegetables Chips?

Here you go! It's 100% made of vege's!

Preserved Strawberry! It taste sweet & sour.

It's me! LOL~ Isn't she look cute? I love kids!

2008? Printing error? LOL~
But it's my 1st angpow for Moo's year!

* Sorry for the low quality photos as i forgot to bring my digicam with me during the visiting. -.-"

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Emo Moo's New Year...

This year indeed is silent, lonely, emotional moo year i ever had! What happen? I really not in the mood at all.. Hence, it should be a great celebration with family & friends... When I watched the fireworks on the countdown night, I feel myself drown with my own emo. I stood in the rains and without I realized my tears dropped... I intend to capture some snapshots of the fireworks but turn out nothing in the end..

On the 1st day.... (1st called from my BFF@ sis)

9.30 am...
"Hi babe, Xin Nian Kuai Le! Come visiting to my house..."
Emm.. Yea.. Happy Niu Year! Later ok? I just wake up & not yet shower.
"Ooo.. Okok! Must come ya.. Wear pretty pretty & hang out at my house...I wait oh..."

"Hey, why not yet show your face? Busy get angpao ar?"
Err.. Raining o..I lazy to go out.. If the rain stop later, I go over ok?
"This girl ar.. So many execuses one..Make sure I see your face later. Else I kidnap you tonight!"

7.30 pm...
The phone ringing again. But I was in emo mood & I dint pick up the called. -.-"

"Babe, thanks for being too concern to ask me to come over your house.. But, I am very sorry to turn you down.. I never meant it as I really don't want to show my moody face & I also don't want to cheat u by showing my fake smile. I know you can see through... And I don't want to spoilt your new year just to comfort me. I rather to lock myself in my room... "

My day end up chatting on MSN with one of my friend till 2 am something. Being too emo the whole night until I finished up one big box of tissue paper... -.-"

"Babe, thanks for being a good listener. I knew that my problems just annoyed you. But i don't know to who else I can confess my feelings except you."

On the 2nd day....

I've been rejected few calls today. As I don't want to go for visiting with my moo's eyes. Maybe I should just turn off my phone but I don't want to let some of them worries as I never turned off my phone at all, 24/7 standby. But, I really want to be alone today. Not enough with the current emo, I was shocked to find out the things that I don't wish to know. Not to reveal it here. It's really doubled my emo but anyhow I had promised myself that I'll be alright...

p/s: Dear J... ILY@IMYSM eventhough you hurt me so much today... break my heart into thousand pieces. I hope that what I heard was not real & it was just a misunderstanding.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Definitions of...

A place where Papa pays and Son plays.

Life Insurance: A contract that keeps you poor all your life
so that you can die Rich.

Nurse: A person who wakes u up to give you sleeping pills.

It's an agreement in which a man loses his bachelor degree
and a woman gains her masters.

The hydraulic force by which masculine willpower
is defeated by feminine waterpower.

Lecture: An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer
to the notes of the students without passing through "the minds of either"

Conference: The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present.

The art of dividing a cake in such a way that
everybody believes he got the biggest piece.

A place where success comes before work.

Conference Room: A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on.

Father: A banker provided by nature.

Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.

One who shakes your hand before elections and your Confidence after.

Doctor: A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you by bills.

Classic: Books, which people praise, but do not read.

Smile: A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Office: A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.

Yawn: The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

Etc.: A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.

Individuals who can do nothing individually and
sit to decide that nothing can be done together.

Experience: The name men give to their mistakes.

Atom Bomb: An invention to end all inventions.

Philosopher: A fool who torments himself during life, to be wise after death.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Ah Beng's Night Course

Ah Beng went to take night courses with the reason in future can get promotion or better job. During work, Ah Beng likes to show off to Ah Seng about his knowledge.

Ah Beng : Ah Seng ah... I've been taking night courses for 3 months already, next week is the exam.
Ah Seng : Oh... Good luck ah.

Then Ah Beng started show off...

Ah Beng : Ok, I test you, who is Graham Bell?
Ah Seng : Don't know
Ah Beng : He is the inventor of phone la... in 1876, see... if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng : ......................... *speechless*

The next day, Ah Beng shows off again...

Ah Beng : Ah Seng ah... let me ask you, who is Jean Jacques Rousseau?
Ah Seng : Wash your toilet one ah?
Ah Beng : No! He's the author of "Confessions", nah nah nah... told you already, if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng : .......................... *speechless + frustrated*

The next day, once again...

Ah Beng : Do you know who is Alexander Dumas?
Ah Seng : Your gay partner?
Ah Beng : Choiii!!! If you don't know don't simply answer la. He's the author of "The 3 Musketeers", if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng : ....................... *speechless + frustrated + irritated

This time Ah Seng cannot tahan (stand) anymore and ask Ah Beng...

Ah Seng : Eh... Do you know who is Ah Kaw?
Ah Beng : Errrr... No!
Ah Seng : He's the guy sleeping with your wife!! If you stop night courses, you would know this!!
Ah Beng : ......................... *fainted*

p/s: Just some joke to share with during CNY... Moo's Year Joke... :) for whoever that not in the mood for CNY... who just stay at home... Silent Moo's Year as me...

Saturday, January 24, 2009

"Gong Xi Fa Cai" & Happy Holiday to all!

Wishing everyone a prosperous Lunar New Year!
May you be blessed with health, wealth & fecility... :)

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Because I'm a girl...

It's impossible to understand
what's going through a guy's heart
You told me that you wanted me and now that I've
given you everything, you tell me you're leaving
You told me that it was the first time you
felt this way, and said that I was special
I believed you... and it was my happiness

You should have told me that your feelings had faded
I had no idea, and I continued to depend on you
Although I say I hate you now, I'll be missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...

They say that when you give a guy
all he wants he quickly gets bored
And now I know that's the truth...
And although I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again
I fall in love, and my heart is broken again...

Please don't break the hearts of girls
who'll do anything for love...
I didn't know that living this life
while being loved would be so hard...

Although I say I hate you now, I'll be missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...

Today we broke up...
You're just like all the other guys...
Honestly, I don't want you to be happy
For what you've done towards me...
What am I going to do to forget all about you?
I'm in so much pain, more pain than I can bare...
Because I'm still in love with you...

Hey babe...the pain…
It's not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together but I know now I've been blind...
You told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I cant forgive neither to forget
You really hurt me so much…

Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and their caring instinct...
I didn't know that to be born as a girl and
to be loved would be so pain

Although I curse you I'll still missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...


Monday, January 19, 2009

2009 Contract

After serious & cautious consideration...
Your contract of friendship has been renewed
for the New Year 2009 !

It was a very hard decision to make...
So try not to screw it up !!!

My Wish for You in 2009

May peace break into your home
and may thieves come to steal your debts.
May the pockets of your jeans
become a magnet for $100 bills.
May love stick to your face like Vaseline
and may laughter assault your lips !
May happiness slap you across the face
and may your tears be that of joy.
May the problems you had,
forget your home address !
In simple words ...........

May 2009 be the
best year of your life !!!
Have a Great Year for 2009
to everyone here !

Sunday, January 18, 2009

The unique creation of God...

"O Lord.. I am so thankful..."

This morning, I had passed by one of my friends web page and I was stunned to see the beautiful creation of God that captured by her during her last vacation. I had grab some of the photos to share with all of you...

"Isn't it wonderful creation? "

I hope that one day I could make my dream come true. Traveling all around the world with my life partner, exploring the wonderful world that created by our mighty Lord... Amen...

Friday, January 16, 2009

Song in my heart...

I still remember one of your promises...

"...I will be the happiest woman in the world with every second of sweet memories that will not be forgotten forever... "

For my dearly someone, I am not the happiest woman in the world and I'm holding every second of sweet memories that we had together which made me suffering...

"...and now I am being forgotten.."

I would like to dedicate the song in my heart...

"Moving On"

Just getting used to waking up everyday
Not seeing your face
I just began to stop setting your place
And I stop longing for your warm embrace
And it was God that made me able
To finally sleep at night
Though you're not by my side
Finally I don't hardly cry
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

I finally put your cloths away
You know the ones you wore the day
That you were taken away from me
I just began to stop wearing my ring
And I finally stop playin' our song
When I realized I was dancin' alone and
Finally God gave me strength
To go on and breath again
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on
I want to feel alive again
I want to be in love again
And no matter how hard I try
I can't erase you from my mind
And I gotta find somebody new
But I just can't give over you

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life...

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Live well... Love much.. Laugh often!

Boss walked into the office one morning not knowing that his zipper was down. His secretary walked up to him and asked, "Boss this morning when you left your house, did you close your garage door?" This was not a phrase that her boss understood, so he went into his office looking a bit puzzled.

When he was about done with his paper work, he suddenly noticed that his Zipper was not zipped up. He zipped up and remembering what his secretary had told him, finally understood. He then intentionally went out to ask for a cup of coffee from his secretary. When he reached her desk, he said, "When you saw the garage door open did you see my jaguar parked in there?" The secretary smiled for a moment and said, "No, Boss I didn't. All I saw was a Kancil 600 with 2 flat tires."

"It's just another LOL..."

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Why people fall in love?

"Love is just another mystery..."

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try tograsp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is agift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out oflove, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost ratherthan accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself. All our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE...

" If you keep your heart open, it will come again..."

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


What is the feeling been bullied? I am wondering why to give someone that not capable to handle the task... which in the end somebody else have to follow up the things that already messed up! Not to blame the person... Not to complaint on it... Not to show my unsatisfactory... But just to point up something that can be changed since the beginning.

"expression without words"

In fact, I am so thankful that I am given this opportunity to show that I am more capable than the person even though I am too lack of experience and just a newbies in that arena. Indeed, I found out that I am very good to help people to settle up the messed...

"I can't do it" never yet accomplished anything; "I will try" has performed wonders...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Raining oh raining...

It's been third day raining non stop at my place.. Arghhh.. Supposed today is my 1st day to report on duty... But since my working place area flooded, then today is another holiday for me! Hopefully the rain will stop soon, else I don't think I still can go to work tomorrow. It will be another lazy day for me...

"I'm now as gloomy as the sky... Raining non stop in my heart..."

Tears are an expression of grief... These few days I dropped my tears as heavy as the rain outside! Till when I have to face all this dilemma? I thought today will be the new beginning in my life as I can keep myself busy and flooded with workload... But at last, it's still another hard day for me to face...

And I am start to think much now... Why would you do this to me? Why would you be heartbreaker and troublemaker in my life? Why would you start something that would mess everything? Why? Why?... There are too many "Why" on my mind now... And only you the one that can give me the answers... God, please give me strength in facing all the obstacles in my life journey...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

The new beginning of year 2009...

"Goodbye to the year of 2008..."

It's beginning of my footsteps entering the year of 2009 and I'm hoping everything great awaiting for me... Yea, I have gone through too much pain in year of 2008 and I'm deeply hurt... But I will stand stronger as I believe "God always sends rainbows after the rain..".

"In fact, life is a great adventure where you can never predict what is going to happen, nor would I wish to. For all of us, there are good and bad things waiting around the corner but at least with age and experience we learn to enjoy or deal with things better..."

Let's treasure year of 2009...