Love = Pain

When you feel down or upset, please count the stars in the sky... One, two, three, four,.... you counted till you unsure the figure then you'll feel better soon... Maybe this only works on me... But how if there's raining or no stars in the sky? Drunk yourself with chivas?

Love is pain... Love is beautiful lie... Love is just a game... Am I right? If not, please correct me... True love never exist in this world... In fact, it's just a fairy tales to make you blind...

Tears are words the heart can't express...

When you feel wanna cry, what would you do? Even though you know it's not worth for your tears... I rather cry it out then to stop my tears to drop down... Most of people will need tissue paper or handkerchief but not me... Why? Because every time I feel want to cry I will take a shower... Maybe that's the best way to save tissue paper... and also the best way to waste water... Hahah! (Fake Laugh)

Honestly, I feel better after that... just like the water washed away all my sadness... Just hoping I won't getting sick by doing this too often. I still believed there always sunshine after the rain... Maybe it's just not the time yet. Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see LIFE with a clearer view again...

“When the tears fall, it's so easy to wipe off... but how do I erase the stain from my heart?”

Self-Abused...

Do you ever lost control and caused self-abused? In fact, when you feel deep depressed and when you are in your own world, everything will be out of your control... This what I get used too right now! I scratched both my arms till it bleeding... I stabbed myself with pen... and I dint feel the pain! I feel numb and I totally don't know what is the feel of pain.. It's really out of my control which caused self-abused... to get myself get hurt to release some kind of annoying feels in my heart... People will think that I was mad! But in fact all this is out of my control... as I mentioned earlier... I feel numb... I cant bear this feelings... I want to feel something that more painful than the pain in my heart now....

p/s: For you-know-who-you-are, I am sorry that it's really out of my control... Remember last time when we quarreled, it used to happened and you will stop me but now no one to stop me... Don't worry as the pain is not as greater as the pain I feel in my heart...

Because I'm a girl...

It's impossible to understand
what's going through a guy's heart
You told me that you wanted me and now that I've
given you everything, you tell me you're leaving
You told me that it was the first time you
felt this way, and said that I was special
I believed you... and it was my happiness

You should have told me that your feelings had faded
I had no idea, and I continued to depend on you
Although I say I hate you now, I'll be missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...

They say that when you give a guy
all he wants he quickly gets bored
And now I know that's the truth...
And although I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again
I fall in love, and my heart is broken again...

Please don't break the hearts of girls
who'll do anything for love...
I didn't know that living this life
while being loved would be so hard...

Although I say I hate you now, I'll be missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...

Today we broke up...
You're just like all the other guys...
Honestly, I don't want you to be happy
For what you've done towards me...
What am I going to do to forget all about you?
I'm in so much pain, more pain than I can bare...
Because I'm still in love with you...

Hey babe...the pain…
It's not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together but I know now I've been blind...
You told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I cant forgive neither to forget
You really hurt me so much…

Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and their caring instinct...
I didn't know that to be born as a girl and
to be loved would be so pain
Although I curse you I'll still missing you
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything...

ILY@IMY J...

Song in my heart...

I still remember one of your promises...

"...I will be the happiest woman in the world with every second of sweet memories that will not be forgotten forever... "

For my dearly someone, I am not the happiest woman in the world and I'm holding every second of sweet memories that we had together which made me suffering...

"...and now I am being forgotten.."

I would like to dedicate the song in my heart...

"Moving On"

Just getting used to waking up everyday
Not seeing your face
I just began to stop setting your place
And I stop longing for your warm embrace
And it was God that made me able
To finally sleep at night
Though you're not by my side
Finally I don't hardly cry
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space
No...

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

I finally put your cloths away
You know the ones you wore the day
That you were taken away from me
I just began to stop wearing my ring
And I finally stop playin' our song
When I realized I was dancin' alone and
Finally God gave me strength
To go on and breath again
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space
No...

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on
I want to feel alive again
I want to be in love again
And no matter how hard I try
I can't erase you from my mind
And I gotta find somebody new
But I just can't give over you

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Coz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life...